Still here….wherever here is.

Please excuse my slightly melodramatic title and I’m not even going to apologize for my lack of consistent posts. 2020 has been a really crusty year and it’s been difficult to find the words to write. It hasn’t been all bad mind you…some really great things have happened for me this year but as a whole…the year has been really heavy and I know that there is no automatic reset coming for me so I am trying to do what I can to stay above it.

I realize I've been craving comfort which isn’t a surprise given the current state of affairs but it’s a slightly discomforting feeling but I been all about the familiar…staying home, re-reading my favourite books and just trying to sort through the whirlwind of emotions.

Living in a pandemic is no walk in the park and the new normal is the farthest thing from. There are some things that I’ve been doing though that have truly been helping me through the moments of existential dread.

1) Cultivating a spirit of gratefulness. Thanking the Universe is one of the first things I think about as I wake up and I try to echo the thought a few times each day. Just being grateful and trying to find some glimmer of sunshine through the storm clouds of 2020 has done wonders.

2) Thinking of my future self and wanting the best for her. I wouldn’t say I’m a huge procrastinator but there are times when I do avoid certain tasks..or let them pile up for longer than I should. When I think about my future self and realise that I am making things harder for her…it helps me to find the energy to do the things…it may be putting away freshly washed clothes, washing dishes, making some important follow up calls or cough cough writing a much overdue blog post.

3) Listening to my body and my spirit. I have a bad habit of pushing myself harder than I need to, sometimes to the point of exhaustion and overwhelm. But when I do that I realize how much it doesn’t serve me and how draining it is. So listening to my body sometimes mean setting an alarm and taking a nap, exercising even for 20 minutes , saying no (nicely but firmly) when things are being piled onto my already full plate and asking for help when I need it.

I’m far from having it all together but I keep trying and I keep learning about myself…that’s one thing that i’ve been given..more time to listen and learn myself.

Till next time…stay hydrated, stay safe and do things that bring you joy.

Love and light,

UltraRush